All the Sudden Something Just Happened - Choice

All these years, at some point, I have felt alone,

I know some of you out there have felt this same way or are prone.

Even when I have many around me, all of my friends.

It has nothing to do with them or other company.

It's about a bond deeper with that one person,

The one that should have never be broken.

And now when I thought I was strong,

I find I was terribly terribly wrong.

At this exact moment my body is shaking out of madness,

But not quite, it's hard to explain, it's more like distress,

It's from a call I received late tonight.

The caller's voice created this uncontrollable vibration that is resonating inside.

It's shaking me up so much, I want to blow up.

It's not going to happen because it's not worth it,

But my tears!

They can't seem to stop,

They're still overflowing.

It's because tonight I've had a visitor that came by to let me know,

Betrayal has come back to shrill me and is alive and well.

He was my first true love and again he failed.

It's not from a person you would first expect.

Its not like I never knew but,

Its just the feeling of helplessness and waste of respect.

The pain that feels impossible to soothe because of the truth it beholds.

At this age and stage in life,

I've been through this before

And glides in with a famous saying I now remember,

"What doesn't kill you makes you stronger."

And you know what?

Boy they are right!

All the sudden something just happened---

What is there to get mad at anyway?

There are bigger problems in this world,

And "I shall rise."

The tears are drying as I just realized.

At least I can still go on.

You are my witness, for those of you reading this.

All the sudden something just happened---

If you have encountered betrayal, be strong because it's not your fault.

It depends much more on how you react after being distraught.

As I wrote this I just had another theraputic thought.

And I kid you not that in the beginning of writing this page,

I was crying so hard. Trying to share without letting out too much,

Now as I have transferred these words from inner thoughts.

All the sudden something just happened---

I understand that this is what life is,

Life is filled with inevitable routes.

I'm going to choose to lift myself beyond this situation,

Correct my emotions,

Soar higher than my negative and hurt feelings,

I'll use this to be another lesson learned,

Heal my wounds fast and let go of this temporary pain for good.

Posted: 3:49 a.m. EST October 25, 2005 by Anne Meesriyong